Orgy of the Ear

OMG OMG OMG ROSE
WE HAVE TO GO TO THE SASQUATCH MUSIC FESTIVAL MAY 29
THIEVERY CORPORATION (LIVE) * THE ROOTS * THE POSTAL SERVICE * THE SHINS * BUILT TO SPILL * SLEATER-KINNEY * THE NEW PORNOGRAPHERS * CAT POWER * THE LONG WINTERS * THE BLACK KEYS * GARY JULES * THE DECEMBERISTS * DONAVON * FRANKEN REITER * ALEXI MURDOCH * PRESTON SCHOOL OF INDUSTRY * NELLIE MCKAY *FRUIT BATS * DJ CHERRY CANOE

OMG OMG OMG

AND the Shins! Coming to Portland on May 22, a Saturday! And Friday the 21 of May is Cursive in Portland!!!! We could totally see both in one smashing weekend!! !!!!!

PostScript. Sleater-Kinney in Eugene May 25!!!!

Elliott Smith

Today during projects Lucas and Wren and I lay around trying to keep warm outdoors. I talked to Nora a bit so that was cool, she seems to be doing allright. I'm glad that I met her when I did. I made Lucas a mixed cd which he really needed, so I'm pleased about that. I dunno, I spent a long time sort of dozing and staring at the sky, and I can't tell if I'm just relaxing or if I shut off completely. I feel kind of hazy, and I need to finish homework, so if I AM shut off, when exhaustion hits me I can collapse. Like that, yeah.

THINK?

Fishy High Five

Hi again.

Albert says hello (*wink)

I have a little purple candle which I burned down tiny, so now it is like a tiny purple pen!

PS. Sleep will do a body good.

Listening to: Wrapped Up In Book - Belle and Sebastian

I can't think of much of anything to say that would express how I'm feeling right now. I tried drawing, I tried Elliot Smith, I tried talking to my dad, and now I'm trying this. Oh well. Do you ever get a feeling like you are incoherant, but you keep trying to be heard anyway? Maybe I just need sleep and then people will understand me or I will understand people, although I don't feel optimistic at the moment.

PostScript. I understand drinking, and I understand school, but I DON'T understand why one would want to mix the two. All that brings is trouble, and I imagine school would be an unpleasant place to be drunk in. I would soo much rather be drunk at home than at school, besides the fact that it is safer and you won't get into trouble or hurt yourself doing that. The only reason to get drunk at school is to prove a point, and it is a stupid, immature, and desperate point.

Wanted: One Record-Breaking Cigarette Filter

(Ha) I haven't done my History OR my Lit homework, but I just memorized a bunch of formulas for calculus, although I will probably forget them by tomorrow. Ah well. I need to go camping and forget about all of this.

Tonight I fully appreciated the Red House Painters. I was burning a candle while listening to them, which was really soothing, but now my room is kinda smoky and I think I"m going to have to fix the ventilation before I go to sleep.

Oh, by the way, I MUST draw something soon or I'm going to go crazy, because I can write and write and write in my diary but I never feel satisfied doing it. It's similar to doing something boring like watching TV and then getting up and going to read a book to "relax." Some things just aren't as expressive as other things.

Anyway, I've got to get up tomorrow (ack!) so goodnight.

Listening to: Red House Painters - I'm Sorry

Roooooooooooooooooose!

Augh!@!

I am SO TIRED. And I really haven't got a clue.

Math sucks in a big way.

I love my friends.

I think my body is shutting down because it wants me to sleep so bad.

Waking up tomorrow is going to be excruciating. And I'll most certainly be late and Franzi will get POed at me.

That is what Spanish class is every day....

And I haven't done my homework...for anything except math..and I lost my Lit sheet for the study guide

In Long: I'm screwed. Totally and utterly. And i'm tired, and I try, but then I fail, and I mentally kick myself for the next three hours. I just don't get it. but then I don't have very good role models, I mean, some people I know do homework, a LOT of it, and are way unhealthy, while others don't at all. But this is my fault though!!

Life sucks now.

I wish somebody (ahem Rose) would post on my little tagboard. It would make me happy.

And what is UP with Strong Bad? There hasn't been a new 'toon in forever!

My life has now reached a new low.

Epiphany

There is a social code and if one breaks the social code then certain people will get upset. It does not matter if they get upset if you do not mind them getting upset at you, but if it does concern you then you are less likely to break the social code.

I care if these people get upset at my breaking the code because they know certain people better than I do, who I want to get to know better.

This is doubly stupid because there is no way in hell I can get to know these far-off people better without breaking the code, due to the rules of the code.

There is nothing left to do than to laugh in the face of the code as I break it, because I can only think of a couple people who would get tiffed at me for doing so, and if the people they know better than I do are turned against me due to the resentment of these people, then the people I would like to know better are not as great as I think they are right now.

That would be sad, but at least then I would know something more about them.

In fact, in breaking the code I will listen to so many more people than I would before, and I will be so much more intimate and happy and honest and fulfilled!

So whoop-de-doo!

PS If you can understand this then I applaud you, and you shall be wise

Did I Know it Would Turn Out Like This?

I'll be working all day today but I want to say hello.
I've been thinking about college and stuff, and I'm kind of scared about it.
Some of my friends, seniors, are going next year.
They'll be in town, but its still scary for them.
It's hard for me, because I don't know why I work, and I don't know why I should
But sometime all my friends will leave, and then where will I be?
I have to find my own path in life to follow or I will be left behind when everyone else leaves.
And I have seen many people lately being left behind, and that scares me even more.
Because people don't think about it. Until it happens.
All I want at the moment is time, money, and an inclination to do something, but that won't last past graduation.

I'm sorry to be a downer but I needed to write this.

Studies

Dear You,

I am really tired today and I have much homework to do, although I stayed up all weekend working, I still must work and work and work and that frustrates me to death because all I want to do is leave my planner behind and run around aimlessly for the sake of doing so. All I want to do is to go outside, and to go to clubs, and to do art. But it seems lately that all I can do is work, and if I cannot work, I must sleep, because otherwise my body will fail and I will be left a shell peeking out of raccoon eyes. And I don't want that...

At least I finished my projects work last night. I'm thinking of doing human energy fields, or the open-source revolution for my senior paper. Or something about professional organizers. Anyhoo, got to do Econ. Soon I'll come out of this time of endless work, and when I do, it shall be glorious!

Love to Rose!