MaiaLouise

Blog of a twenty-something organizer painter caterer.

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Location: Eugene/New York, OR/NY, United States

I am reading little bits of twenty different books at once, practicing yoga, meditation, Alexander Technique and learning how to cook Indian cuisine. I do my best at everything I spend time on, because each activity is its own work of art.

Monday, February 16, 2004

Parchment in a Glass Bottle

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Life is funny the way things seems one way, but it is only in your mind. When you realize this, you are faced with having to find out how you feel about what is real outside of yourself. It's scary, because what if you don't like what you find? What if someone isn't as wonderful as you build them up to be? What if they are?

It is really important to not put other people down, because its ugly.

It's sad that people have sex without love, because what are you left with afterwards?

I don't think I've ever felt so loved or so lonely as I have this past year. When I think things are getting normal again, then I realize I just forgot that I was trying to change, because I still feel the same as I did before, and I still think the same as I did before, and when these don't match, my brain and my heart have a hell of a time communicating with one another. It's too hard to rationalize anymore.

I hope that you fall in love, and that you are safe, and that you have an awful go of it, and then break down in despair, but then wake up, feed the fish, and see if you are still there afterwards. I'm happy because I know I'll survive despair. I really want you to know that you will too.

Listening to: Sparklehorse - Saint Mary

Thursday, February 05, 2004

Hell

Creationists
Circle I Limbo

Rednecks
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Republicans
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Militant Vegans
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Uday Hussein
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Qusay Hussein
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

General asshats
Circle VII Burning Sands

Osama bin Laden
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

George Bush
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell